Intimacy without commitment?

OK, so I’m taking a break from my “non-starter chronicles” series because:

1. I’m bored and I fear I am boring you

2. I realise I have a major part to play in letting these guys into my life so I’m ashamed and embarrassed (OK not so much)

3. I have a juicier story for you!

So, I came across this article which really opened my eyes. OK, I’ve heard it before; if a guy is not committing to you, he is stringing you along as he looks for something better, etc. but reading it again just refreshed my memory. Do you find that you forget all the nuggets of wisdom you hear and need it repeated sometimes over and over and hit you over the head over and over until you finally get it? No? Only me? OK.

There is a guy who I believe is stringing me along. He has never asked me out on a date but we have kissed. Three times. Stop looking at me like that. We hang out and talk and text and call and share details of our lives but we never meet outside of (I don’t want to say it — fill in the blank). So what’s the deal? I don’t want to ask him about the never-meeting-outside-of-undisclosed-location thing. I have asked about the commitment and he gave me a load of crap about his unreadiness for it but he is planning to ask me sometime in the future. OK he actually did ask me after one semi-long make-out session but I said it didn’t count.

So, in actual sense, I don’t really want to be with this guy. He’s great, but not the kind of guy I would want to spend my life with. I know this, or rather my head knows this, but my heart is another matter. Everyday I try to have this resolve for I won’t smile at him, hang out with him, talk to him, I’ll be all business-like, but everytime I see him, I forget all my resolutions.

I refused to make out with him though becuase I don’t want intimacy without commitment. I also don’t want to open up too much to him, seeing as I’m not in a safe place with him.

How does one get rid of feelings of attraction???!!! How many times in my life have I asked this question when trying to get over someone? Why don’t I ever write down the solution whenever I succeed so I can refer to it at a later date?

I NEED TO STOP LIKING HIM SO I CAN MOVE ON!!

Please read the article I linked to and you’ll get my reasons for this panic. I’m too old for this *toot*!!

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